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its been days, iv been dreaming for days

something which i can not seem to awaken myself from

dreams in which i am what i can never be

dreams in which i see all that i would never see

dreams where happiness is what i cant reach

its been years, ive been awake for years

those years are not what i thought they would be

years of being with people who seem to care

years of being around those not treated fair

years where what i believe in is trully not there

its been decades, ive suffered for decades

to think that i thought kindly once before

decades of seeing the world slowly turn inside out

decades of seeing truth and honor skewered

decades that i wish i did not go through

yet i am grateful that i get to dream

i am grateful i get to live

��������������I don’t know what happened. I try so hard but it’s not enough or it’s not right. It’s far too complicated. I was almost happy. But something broke. My heart. I shall sit and wait for sunrise.

Quote of the day

"He who trims himself to suit everyone will soon whittle himself away." - Raymond Hull

Universe entry of the day

If you just whistle every now and then, Ed; skip every thousandth step or so; skim the odd stone across the odd pond; go dancing on the occasional blue moon, if only alone in the dark; dress up sometimes, even with nowhere to go... for simply stirring up some little bit of hope, no matter how silly or disconnected your actions seem to be with the rest of the world, magic flashes in the unseen, friends are summoned, connections are timed, stars are aligned, opportunities are crystallized and serendipities are calculated, creating possibilities for new realities that cannot now even be imagined from where you presently stand.

Shazaam

-The Universe-

Journal entry of the day

Rock on. A phrase as old as rock and roll itself I would guess. Went to bed sorta late last night yet found myself jumping out of bed to meet the day at 6am. MaxGXL has been very good to me of late. The only thing I really need to make a point of is finding time, (30 mintues or so), to step away and excercise. I can find time for all sorts of nonsense, why not time for health and wellness?

So, why rock on? Why not? Rock on is something that gives me strength and fills me with optimism. It is a pphrase that can end a conversation or rally the spirit. I've probably been saying it or a variation of it for a 1/4 century, amazing. The core of optimism, rock on. Hey man, great job, rock on. To rock, to celebrate to show exuberance.

Yee haa!

Rock on.

Quote of the day

"A man is rich in proportion to the number of things he can afford to let alone." - Henry David Thoreau

Universe entry of the day

Arguments are won intellectually, Ed; not love.
Tallyho
-The Universe-

Journal entry of the day

I got a call fairly early this am. It was from a guy named Larry from Delaware. I sent out a 3-minute video to everyone on my contact list yesterday. It was a 3-minute video from Jim Rohn. The video was/is a brief snapshot of all of Jim Rohn's philosophies and beliefs respective of personal development. I liked it, it didn't have any strings attached to it, so I shared it.

Larry liked it. He called to thank me. We both forgot how we met and were introduced. We spent the next few minutes extolling the virtues of what we do for a living and the opportunity we have in front of us. People remind me of why I love this business. People. I love this business for what it makes me and what it it makes the people who encounter and embrace it.

Who are you going to help today? And why?

ahhhh i just want someone who wants me of me....

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09:35 - Drove into the office this morning.� Mr. T. needs me to roll the delphi LM image out to a physical.� He ordered the 64 system on Friday but it hasn't shown up as of yet so I'll delay that a bit.

- Must open ticket now for giant/titan work this thurs.� (tckt� 462369)

- Clarity� (47)

- haydn has been throwing warnings all weekend about full drive space.� Check with Tequila & Chops to find out wtf is going on with that.

10:40 - 64 isn't here yet.� Stopped to see Cartman & Grandpa Simpson.� We'll do lunch today.� Walked across the street to find Mac, Tequila or Chops just to say 'hi', but they weren't at their usual haunts.� Doesn't look like Mac is even in for the day.

-- Becky is on Sametime.� She'll be back in the office on the 21st.� I'm going to send a note to Biker Babe, Country Boy, and a few others to see if we can make a lunch date.

2:50 - Went to lunch from 11 to 1.� When I got back to the office the new Delphi 64 phy server had shown up and I started working on it with Mr. T.� The first & second drives laid down just fine, but there appears to be a problem with the ghost image of hd3.� So we have to roll the image again and see if the problem goes away.� We started that around 2:00 or 2:30 (Short term memory loss) and it's still running.� Not even 1GB of the 6GB partition rolled up yet.� This is going to go for a while.